I want to share some advice from an experience I went through a couple of years ago. After a somewhat risky sexual encounter, I convinced myself I was HIV positive and had off the chart anxiety for weeks. I started seeing things like white spots on my tongue and convinced myself of a diagnosis before even getting tested. It was to the point where I even told my parents. I just want to say to anyone to try to hang in there as you go through anxiety. It is very easy to get in your head and have blinders on. This is especially true with the white spots on the tongue, which can be ulcers caused by the anxiety or from biting accidentally.
You will get through this. Things are likely in your head and worst-case scenario, this is now a disease where you can live a happy and healthy life with treatment. Don’t be too hard on yourself and go get the test as soon as you can. People care about you, including myself.