Do you ever think about how much time you have wasted? What I mean by that is the time that was wasted being worried. For me, I was worried about if I was going to make it when I found out about my HIV diagnosis.
I wasted a lot of time
That was a hard hurdle to get over. I went through depression, fear, anxiety, and was afraid of the unknown. I manifested everything in my life by the way of my thinking and I wasted a lot of time.
I actually wasted 17 years before I realized what happiness really was. Time waits for no one and it took me a long time to realize that.
How I spend my time now
Now, time is so very important in my life. I no longer use my time sulking about what could have been. I use my time to live, be happy, smile, love others, and give back to those we need it. We only have one life and time waits for no one.
How can I be better today?
As of May 2021, I have now lived with HIV for 24 years, and, in 3 years, it will be half my life living with something I thought would take me away from my family, my daughter, and those that I love dearly.
So when I talk about time, I now see how important it is. It is the now that I am living in and not the time spent focusing on the past, the present, or even the future
Every day that we wake up, it is a start of a new day, so the new day is what I work on. How can I be better today than I was yesterday? Who can I impact or help? How can I make others feel good about who they are? I was once someone who did not love herself.
I don't want life to pass me by
I do not want life to pass me by and then I look up and it is too late to do the things I dreamed of. Time will not wait for me or any of us to be happy. It is up to us to create great mental thoughts daily about who we are.
Live a fulfilling life on your own terms
Time is deep inside our desires and thoughts, but staying right there stuck with time makes one feel very empty. So, use your time to fulfill your life with the people, places, or things that make it worth living.
Manifesting what I want out of life
Time, to me, is moving in a positive way and not standing still in the crap that I let others validate me by. Time is like a train moving swiftly on the tracks - you cannot catch it and it will not wait for you if you are late. Time waits for no one.
I say run; go, move as fast as you can. So fast, you cannot catch yourself. Be in competition with yourself to be the best version of yourself that you can be.
I have lived 24 years with HIV and have learned over the years how to manifest beautiful thoughts of how I see myself and not how others see me. Because, time waits for no one!
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