My story and looking for people with a similar story

By monsieurdevries

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Dear Reader,

Five years ago I met someone on the streets of Paris who changed my life completely. Quick but deep in love I moved from Amsterdam to be with him. We split after three years and two years ago I discovered he contaminated me purposely with HIV. He lied about his status and did not take his medication. He accused me of contaminating him while he was diagnosed twenty years ago.

I filed a lawsuit against him, enough evidence for him to appear in court.

I am looking for people who have been through a similar situation to talk to because I feel alone. I have been not in a good headspace for two years now because of this event and I'm looking for ways to heal, talking with people who have been in a similar story could be helping.

If you are up for a chat or know someone who might be interested let me know,

Yari

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LizGreen Community Admin
<inline-mention username="monsieurdevries" user-id="6759613"/> , I can tell by your writing how difficult this has been. How have you been feeling in terms of your health? How have you responded to treatment? Every situation is different, but there are some leaders here who have written articles and made videos about how they relate to the person from whom they acquired HIV. I don't know if you can relate to any of them specifically, but hope it can help make you feel less alone. <inline-mention username="Jahlove Serrano" user-id="2046741"/> - Did I forgive him? (Video) - <a href='https://h-i-v.net/?p=4419' target='_blank'>https://h-i-v.net/?p=4419</a> <inline-mention username="Ze" user-id="2048448"/> - I never got closure, from him - <a href='https://h-i-v.net/?p=3491' target='_blank'>https://h-i-v.net/?p=3491</a> Please keep us posted on how you're doing, and I hope others chime in with their experiences. - Liz (Team Member)
monsieurdevries Member
 Hello <inline-mention username="LizGreen" user-id="2047243"/> Thank you for your caring response, I really appreciated it. The treatment goes well, undetectable. Biktarvy it's called. You're the best.... thanks! 
1. Heather Renee Moderator & Contributor
 <inline-mention username="monsieurdevries" user-id="6759613"/> Good morning. I hope you are doing well. I am on the same medication as you. Obviously I am also positive. I was also with somebody who knew they were positive, did not take their medications, and knowingly infected me. I was not able to do anything about the individual because by the time we were able to get my health under control, he had passed from untreated PCP pneumonia. There are a lot of emotions to process with this situation. I am always available to chat. There is a messaging system here that will allow you to send me a private message. If that is something you would like to do. Best wishes - Heather R (team member)
2. Ze Moderator & Contributor
 <inline-mention username="monsieurdevries" user-id="6759613"/> Hello, Don't feel like you're alone at all in this, often times those who pass us HIV will "gaslight" us to make us feel as though we are crazy. You're not. I hope the legal system serves you the justice you are looking for. I am here for you, as a support, or shoulder if you ever need to vent or talk. I also have been taking Biktarvyi since 2018. Hope to talk soon. Ze
MWarrior Member
Hey everyone here I can feel and understand how is could be so painful and aggressive because you know who did it to you. Its annoying but you must understand that being able to heal and get undetectable is a gift since i haven t been unable to get medicens and i went through a very dark months of my life as i discovered by surprise i am hiv positive and i was jobless so no money no medicens for long months ..... I believe when you see others problems yours might be nothing infront of them. I come to this forum asking for help but in vain and again and again i am calling up for help if anyone can helps me get ART medicens. I need a sources where i can get it to get treated and be safe, i am going through extreme hard time and lonliness and everyone observed it but i can t reveal to anyone. I thought of suicide but i think i should give myself more chances. Being HIV is africa is true punishement. Please anyone have any solution or any assosation which can helps people of HIV, i would be extreme thankful !!! I am based in Morocco 
1. LizGreen Community Admin
 <inline-mention username="MWarrior" user-id="6221616"/> I know from this and your past messages you are unable to get access to medications. I sent you a direct message with a link that I think has local resources for you. I can feel from your writing how lonely you feel, I hope hearing from others here can help you feel less alone. - Liz (Team Member)
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) <inline-mention username="monsieurdevries" user-id="6759613"/> Thank you for reaching out to us. You are brave and have a great deal of courage. You have come to the right place to find others with similar experiences. I hope you can connect, char and share with others here on <a href='https://h-i-v.net' target='_blank'>H-I-V.net</a>. Khafre (H-I-V.net Team Member)
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) <inline-mention username="monsieurdevries" user-id="6759613"/> You are not alone. Sorry to hear that you had such a bad experience and I hope you find what you are looking for. Khafre (H-I-V.net Team Member)