Your Own Happiness

By dray

1 min read

Found out I was positive three weeks before partner passed of pancreatic cancer. He had been positive for over a year and didn't tell. Leading up to that point, I made choices to keep him happy instead of making myself happy. When you put your happiness in someone else's hands...you lose yourself.

Taking my life back

Being single again sucks, but I hope to meet and develop a healthy relationship with truth and sobriety. Time to live life again.
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caseyh Community Admin
Hi dray, thank you so much for sharing a part of your story with us. We are so grateful to have you in our community. I am sorry to hear about your partner's passing. However, I think many others can relate to your struggle with balancing your own needs and wishes with someone else's, especially someone who is ill. Despite all of this though, I'm glad you are able to take your life back and develop new relationships with others, truth, and sobriety. All wonderful things. Please keep us updated on everything, and stop by anytime! -Casey, <a href='https://h-i-v.net' target='_blank'>H-I-V.net</a> Team
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) Dray, Losing a partner is rough. I want you to know that you are the Ocean and the emotions and feelings are the waves. The waves will come and go but you can handle them because the Ocean is much bigger than to waves.
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) <inline-mention username="dray" user-id="2046355"/> We do loose ourselves when we put all of our energy into someone else's happiness. I think we believe it will make us happy but it ultimately doesn't. We have to have a balance. Khafre (H-I-V.net Team Member)
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) <inline-mention username="dray" user-id="2046355"/> I want to check in with you to see if you have found a new relationship. Please let us know how you are feeling? Khafre (H-I-V.net Team Member)
dray Member
I am doing well. I have not found a new relationship, buy its not for the lack of trying. It's still difficult at the time of status disclosure, but it's getting easier. Nobody has outright rejected me on the basis of status. Living where I do with my schedule I'm encapsulated in my own little world, which leaves the opportunity to meet people, online mostly. That has definitive pitfalls, but I'm not giving up! Hope all is well with you
Khafre Kujichagulia Abif Moderator
Alafia (Peace) <inline-mention username="dray" user-id="2046355"/> How are you doing? Are you still working on finding a healthy relationship or have you already found that special person? Please take some time to reach back out to us so we can support your journey. Khafre (H-I-V.net Team Member)