Am I infected, Please help me!!

I am so anxious and scared I don't know who to ask help for.
I am a seaman and my last HIV test was at Feb 2022, which is negative.

Was I at risk?

My ship was at Bangkok. At 24th Dec 2022 I had protected sex with a CSW girl at Bangkok. It includes protected vaginal sex and protected blowjob from her and unprotected hand job from her (where my thing might touch with her vaginal fluids from her hand). I used the same condom for both scenarios which I'm sure didn't break. After a moment's sleep I had sex with her again which is protected vaginal then I ejaculated.


Next day morning I felt burning sensation after I pee at tip of my penis so I ate 2g of Azithromycin (which I thought would cure some STDs) but burning symptoms didn't disappear which lasts till today.
After a week from that exposure I drunk so much at new year night.

Next day (after 8 days from my exposure), my whole body have severe whole body rashes which are so so itchy and together with chills and weak for three days which I thought are indicative of acute HIV infection. Then after 2 weeks from my exposure I don't see visible swelling but feel pain when I touch both side of my groin, lymph nodes.

Feeling very stressed

I am already stressed enough because of persistent whole body rash and itch then again lymph nodes pain, I am lost for hope.

Now I am almost certain I am infected with HIV as all these symptoms and timeline suggest within acute HIV ARS symptoms.

Limited access to testing

I can't sleep well, afraid to tell about my conditions to my crewmates, cannot go to shore clinic because COVID restrictions and now I am always thinking and browsing internet about HIV and my symptoms.

I will encourage myself to test for HIV if I can, but for now please, experienced members and doctors, help me about my risks. Tell me what to do and give me even if it is a straw of hope cause I am so lonely, so afraid and stressed with no help.

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