I am 51 years old and positive for over 23 years. I have for the most part remained undetectable with cd4 count around 350 and sometime goes up to 450. My other numbers such as creatine, etc, are always elevated and cholesterol is always high even though I eat healthy and work out and run nearly every day. In addition, about a year ago I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and put on a beta blocker called Metoprolol Tartrate. I have been in a committed relationship for 17 years with a partner who is not positive. We have always has a very good sex life having sex at least once a week. Over the last couple of years, it's become harder for me to get and maintain an erection and over this past year my sex drive has become non existent. It has created so much anxiety for me do the point I dread my partner making a move for fear I will not be aroused and I'll have to turn him down again. We had sex two nights ago and I had hoped it would have reset my fear meter, but I cannot let go of the anxiety. He and I have had several conversations and he is committed to being patient. I really need to hear from other men that I am not alone. Does anyone else experience this?