I feel obligated to share my disease
My ex boyfriend gave me hiv and I was nothing but loyal to him..but he was a chronic cheat.. he never felt remorseful about giving it to me..now I dislike all men and I feel we should not be loyal to them
And so because of this I am sharing it to every men I am in sexual contact with especially married men ..I feel some kind of anger and bitterness in me ..I feel I need help or is it normal ?
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Hi
. Your anger with your ex boyfriend for his behavior is certainly understandable, but repeating the cycle can not only harm others, but keep you from finding a healthy mental and emotional place for yourself. The fact that you are asking the questions and mentioning that you feel you need help is a positive step. Our patient leader Robert wrote here about how anger took over his life and how he took his life back: https://h-i-v.net/living/avoiding-anger-issues. We are not medical or mental health professionals, but I want to share with you this page from our editorial team on mental health resources: https://h-i-v.net/mental-health/general-resources. Your doctor may also be able to help with finding local resources.
I would also be remiss if I did not mention that attempting to intentionally pass the virus to others may open you up to legal issues. I want to share with you this article on tips for disclosing status, which discusses the potential legal issues and has a link to state HIV related laws: https://h-i-v.net/disclosing-status. Hoping that you can get the mental and emotional help you spoke of. Best, Richard (Team Member)
I understand your anger. I was with someone for six years before learning their status. I cannot tell you how you need to process this, but I would like to share with you what I did. I forgave, and then I moved forward. This happened to me in 1994 before there was hope for living a whole life. Even so, I was determined to take mine back and experience it to the fullest, and I'm happy I did. I never imagined where I would go, who I would love, and what I could accomplish on that day when he told me the truth. But as I look back, it seems small and less consuming.
I hope you can find peace with this because the complex emotions we experience in anger and stress can be detrimental to our physical and mental health.
I want to share an article about an online support group I just learned about. I've always found that reaching out to those who understand what it's like to live with HIV is our greatest support tool.
https://h-i-v.net/living/positive-support-group
Good Luck to you, and please let us know how you are doing.
Robert Brunet - (Team Member)
