Reclaiming My Narrative

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We often find ourselves on paths that diverge and converge in unexpected ways. My journey back to the field of HIV advocacy is a testament to the power of resilience, self-acceptance, and the transformative potential of embracing one's past.

In 2011, a traumatic event — a date rape — shattered my world and my sense of self. The violation left me with a profound sense of vulnerability and fear, leading me to block out an entire chapter of my life, including my involvement in the HIV field.

Transforming trauma into advocacy

Before, I was an active volunteer in Dallas, Texas and Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania from 2009 to December 2010. After the traumatic event, I built walls around my experiences, both to protect myself and to shield others from what I perceived as the stigma of my past. Before any close encounters, I would meticulously disclose my sexual history, a ritual that felt both necessary and isolating.

This self-imposed exile from the HIV field was a coping mechanism, a way to compartmentalize the pain and move forward.

However, life has a way of nudging us towards our true calling, even when we resist. It wasn't until I began to welcome that part of my life again, to integrate it into my narrative rather than pushing it away, that opportunities started to unfold.

This shift was not a sudden epiphany but a gradual process of self-reflection and healing. I realized that my experiences, as painful as they were, had shaped me into someone with a unique perspective and a deep well of empathy.

Reclaiming my identity

On April 12, 2021, I took a significant step forward by joining Prism Health North Texas as a behavioral health counselor. This role allowed me to re-enter the HIV field, not as a victim but as an advocate and a healer. Working with individuals who were navigating their own journeys with HIV, I found a sense of purpose and belonging. Each interaction was a reminder that my past did not define me but rather informed my ability to connect with others on a profound level.

As I settled into my new role, I began to seek out fellowships and other opportunities to deepen my involvement in the field. These experiences not only expanded my knowledge but also introduced me to a community of like-minded individuals who were equally passionate about advocating for the LGBTQIA+ community and addressing the intersections of HIV with other social issues.

Navigating complex intersections

My journey includes my acceptance into Louisiana State University's School of Social Work as a PhD student. This milestone represents more than just an academic achievement; it is a testament to the power of reclaiming one's narrative.

My research and advocacy focus on the intersections I have lived through — sex work, intimate partner violence, homelessness, mental health, and HIV. These are not just academic topics for me - they are the threads that weave together the tapestry of my life.

Embracing my past has been a journey of self-discovery and empowerment. It has allowed me to transform my pain into purpose, to use my experiences as a catalyst for change. As I continue to advocate for the LGBTQIA+ community and those affected by HIV, I am reminded that our stories are our strength. By sharing our narratives, we can break down stigmas, build bridges of understanding, and create a more compassionate and inclusive world.

Homecoming to HIV advocacy

In many ways, my return to the field of HIV feels like a homecoming. It is a testament to the power of resilience and the transformative potential of embracing one's past.

As I look forward to the future, I am filled with a sense of hope and determination. I am committed to using my voice and my experiences to advocate for those who have been marginalized, to challenge the systems that perpetuate injustice, and to create a world where everyone can live with dignity and respect.

This journey has taught me that our past does not define us: it shapes us.

By embracing our stories, we can find our true calling and make a meaningful impact on the world. As I continue to navigate the complex landscape of my personal advocacy, I am reminded that every step forward is a testament to the power of resilience and the transformative potential of self-acceptance.