I haven't been intimate with anyone since February 2020. I bought a self-test in December 2020, which came back negative. But parts of me are still high-strung on anxiety on the possibility that I do have it. At the moment I am dependent on my parents, so if I do find out I am positive, the burden of paying for medication will fall on them until I am able to take over. My parents have been talking about bills and how expensive everything is now. So I've been avoiding the doctor so that they don't find out anything that may add to their stress.
I had a visit about a month or two ago, and they asked me if I wanted to test for HIV. I agreed to it and was told I can leave the room. A few minutes later a nurse approaches me in the hallway, tells me to enter a empty room and sign a form for HIV testing. I was already very nervous and had high anxiety so I signed the form without reading exactly what it said. I looked online that written consent isn't required for HIV testing and also isn't recommended, so I am confused on what it was that I signed and what they can do with that. I am supposed to come in again to complete the blood tests but this is keeping me back. I guess now I just want a second opinion on whether or not this is normal practice. Am I just being paranoid and should still go along with testing for HIV with this doctor? Find another doctor? Or perhaps just buy another self-test?