Hello,
I'm Joey. I've been diagnosed since May 2023.
I didn't realize My symptoms till it was later in My infection.
I found out after transmission to My partner. They were tested, and so was I. Both were positive. Yet My Cd4 was at 290 giving signs it was all My fault.
I have a hard time living with this. We are no longer together obviously.
I just don't understand why I didn't see any signs in Myself before I "ruined somebodys life"
I haven't tried to meet anyone new nor want to. I'm terrified and saddened by the situation.
I had to leave My job because we worked together and obviously they told everyone and the word of "My infection" spread around work to a point of harassment. I had to resign and I lost all benefits.
I fell off My antiviral therapy back in March of 2024. Have had a hard time feeling like I deserve to be better?
Life has been a continuous smack in the face.
I recently have contracted CMV with Opportunistic Infection (Pneumonia)
Cd4 has dropped to 74.
I am seeking the help needed and looking into therapy. Infectious Disease is looking into Haart.
Im here for a support system.. hopefully someone who can relate might be able to share how they cope or find outlets of liberation.
I'm not going anywhere but I wish I could see brighter days.