Dealing with loneliness
I've been living with this since 2009 by a nurse I was with for over 6 years. She denied giving it to me yet continued to have unprotected sex with me. I tolerated it for a while until I prayed to god and got away from her. I've been by myself since 2019. I haven't met anyone that I can trust and just haven't found what I'm looking for.
That sounds like a really painful experience to carry, especially when it involved someone you trusted for so many years. Leaving that situation was an important step for you, even if being on your own since then has brought its own kind of loneliness. I hope you know you have an entire community here for you, and that you are certainly not alone in that sense. And who knows - maybe the person you have been looking for is out there looking for you, too! Sometimes the right connections come when we least expect them. Keep that head up! -Kimberli (Team Member) Hi
. Many here understand that trust can be a hard thing to recover when it has been painfully violated or broken. I want to share with you this article from our contributor Heather Renee on the this topic: https://h-i-v.net/living/trust-issues. I can't say I have answers to this issue, but do know that you need to be comfortable with who you let in to your life and should feel no pressure to do so. I don't know if you have ever spoken with a therapist, but if it is something you would consider, Heather Renee also wrote about that here: https://h-i-v.net/living/find-therapist. Please know that this community is here for you. Best, Richard (Team Member) I've lived with HIV since 1998 and I married my wife in 2013 and she passed away on 4/29/2025 and I've been lonely for a while now and it sucks 😭
Truly saddened about your loss. Losing your wife after sharing many years of life together must leave such a huge space in your life. I can understand why the loneliness has been so hard 🙁 Thank you for trusting the community enough to share that with us. Please know, you are not alone here. Sending gentle hugs. -Kimberli (Team Member) my heart goes out to you and the passing of your wife. I can hear how lonely you have been and how difficult it is. Please know this community is here for you. Sending you gentle hugs. -- Warmly, Christine (Team Member)
